Dark Side

Tim Minchin sings "I can have a dark side too" I like this song...its funny... I have tried to have a dark side or moment, but its not in my nature. I'm so upbeat its really not funny...after the things that I've been through...well Lou my other half...she has made it through but is still paying the price even though its been over two years.
Heart attack, triple bypass, pneumonia, infection, diabetic ulcers, laser treatment on both eyes, retinopathy, shortness of breath, anxiety, worry, fear, doom, gloom, panic, tears, confusion & thoughts......those thoughts....you know of ending it all....taking the pills...fuck not that...keep moving forward...I can have a dark side too....I can have a dark side too.........sometimes its feel like...well feels like its not going to end. I will get through...I will manage...I will continue...I will plan for tomorrow. I have much brooding potential...so I best get on.

There's always one

Well another first aid class today when I got to the bit about choking the guy that I was demonstrating on asked if he could tell the class his story about choking.
I was expecting a real life story...maybe about someone that he had saved and low and behold the DICK told a joke that was in poor taste...and not even funny. I was embarrassed, surprised, kind of shocked but shit happens. What a loser to tell such a joke,,,and in my class. I had to move on quickly.
I think that it getting a bit ridiculous that I have to keep saying the same stuff..well I'm kind of over it but the different people that I get in a class that make it OK and of course the $$$ help.
Danger..Response...Airway...Breathing...CPR...Defib...yeh...yeh...

Mental Health in the Older Person is the subject that I have just completed and got the results today "I passed" hooray great one more subject to do which will be next year trimester 1 2009.
I found this course good did learn a fair amount regards this population. Have been reading about solution focused brief therapy (SFBT) which is the therapy that I am going to introduce at the inpatient unit over the next 12 months I'm a bit unsure as to where I,m heading and how, but I have a few ideas regards this. Need to draw up a time line before the end of 2007 and it has been suggested that I submit an abstract for a conference next year in Victoria. Will get back on that one at a later date.

Rubbish

This is rubbish out with the old in with the new, nothing remains the same, nothing is permanent.
The destruction of the old hospital wards are happening as you can see. Big trucks big skips and on they go. There are lots of construction workers around this sight. I am looking forward to the new mental health facility that will build over the next year or so. I this build progresses I will be making further post with picture. This will be my record of the transition from a facility that has had a fair share of its problems and that is certainly not designed to meet the needs of a modern health care facility that both the workers and the community can actually value. I looks forward to see what unfolds and how the whole design and function of this building comes out at the other end. This new unit is long overdue and the Central Coast Community deserve a modern facility. The plans are on the wall at work and I have observed lots of people having a look to see what it looks like on paper. It not right yet and much discussion is taking place.

The Journey through to the New Mental Health Unit Gosford

Destruction of the past Gosford Hospital

Creating the Future

Been a while

Well its been a while since I last made any comments on my blog and I would just mention that this picture of this flower is lovely and its one of my snaps not bad eh.

In to the Mental Health Nursing in a big way still enjoying what I do and trying to have some kind of impact small steps easy as we go.

will get back soon have lots of pictures of the demolition at the hospital to show you.

Crisis

Well, its been a while but the the last 3 months have been the worst time time ever. It would be more accurate to say that its been my wifes worst 3 months, that have included a myocardial infarction, it nearly killed her she was given medication that dissolves the clot but than had a VF arrest and had to be shocked. 39 days in hospital the delay was due to an infection. Eventually April 3rd she had a triple bypass. Was out of hospital for 3 weeks and attended her first day at rehab and then that night she became very unwell I was at work and my daughter who is 14yrs old managed the situation. She called the ambulance, my wife nearly died again had to be flown by chopper to another hospital. There is a story to tell and I will tell it at a later time. This family crisis has changed my life and my wifes. cheers for now

Well I finally finished the newgrad year topped it off with 10wks in ICU. That would have been the biggest learning curve since the first week on the job. The sight of those intubated Pts with four Imeds (double one's at that) with up to six infusions scared the pants off me in that first couple of weeks.
In the end I started to enjoy working there but I came to the conclusion that in the end it was not what I wanted to do long term and it took a great deal of thought and reflection to get to that point and finally know what I wanted to near with my career in the short to medium term anyway.

So I have started work as a full time RN in a Acute adult Mental Health Ward 25 Beds and I am really enjoying it. I have heeps to learn but I am excited.

Will give an update at some stage soon
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